satisfaction

Finishing an unsatisfying book, a struggle to get through, too close to home and too far from it all at once. Being able to set it down knowing you have given it every chance, put it down and picked it back up, put it down again, and finally that you have closed the back cover knowing (as you did from page fifty or so) that is was not offering what you sought. But that you finished it anyway. There is an undertone of genuine satisfaction in this feeling, too.